Scared

So I've been getting "advice" from people re. labor and motherhood. And this weekend, it wasn't so fun. I'm not sure if it was the hormones or what, but it made me kind of depressed. I felt a little better after I talked to my mom and some positive friends, but it was kind of rough for a little while.

I just felt like I had been pretty excited about meeting this new baby and welcoming him into our family (and actually having a family of our own), but then I got scared and almost apathetic about the whole thing. The excitement was gone. Last night was our birthing class and that made it a little better, at least at the beginning. But when the teacher talked about the lack of sleep, I got depressed again.

So, I'm thinking a lot of it has to do with Satan. And why not? Of course he wouldn't want me to be excited for a new baby. He wants to destroy our families.

I, in no way, am saying that those that have given me advice are Satan! I just think the way this advice has made me feel is not of Heavenly Father. I'm sure He's so happy that Chad and I are willing to go through the hard times to bring one of His children to earth. I know I'll have to look at this down the road when I'm feeling depressed or exhausted with a newborn!