I got a blessing tonight. I woke up at 3:30am and felt like I was going to be sick. I knew that a girl I work with had the stomach flu last week, so I was afraid I was getting what she had. Work was a beast cause half of our staff was out either with sick kids or because they were sick themselves. I felt a bit better this morning, but then felt worse once I got to work. It was like that all day...felt good, then bad, then good.
We ate dinner and then ran to our last childbirth class on breastfeeding. I felt awful. And I don't think it was the breastfeeding part. Sitting there for 2 1/2 hours wasn't the greatest.
So I asked Chad for a blessing and he had one of our neighbors come over to assist (gotta love living next to members of the church!). And during the blessing, I got pretty emotional. I think it's because I was finally feeling what I had subconsciously been feeling for quite a while...pretty scared. Subconsciously, I've been really afraid for this whole new step in life. I've been afraid and I've also felt pretty unworthy. The blessing reassured me of the great good that I'm doing and how it's such a privilege to be a mom. It also said that the aches and pains and discomforts of pregnancy are so worth it once I have that little baby here. That's so hard to remember when you're going through it.
I'm really grateful for the priesthood.
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