First Mother's Day

First Mother's Day

My Sleepy Boys

Good thing this sleeper has pockets (riiiiiight)...

It's as if he's saying, "Sup ladies?!"

It's official. I'm a mom. And I feel incredibly weird. But I also feel an amazing amount of gratitude for my mom and for being able to become one myself. I love the way Cameron looks up at me when I'm feeding him or when he's just exploring what's in front of him (even if it's a white wall!). I love that he needs me more than anyone else in the world, even when I get tired at night. He's such a sweet little man.

I reflected a little on this huge change today at church (people couldn't believe I was there, but Chad was set apart as the new EQP and I thought I should support him--I'm awesome), but I was also able to think about the mom I have (sitting right next to me) and the mom I want to be. And I have to say that I'm a little scared and excited. How scary it is to have such a responsibility to mold and shape someone's life. But also how awesome to have that amount of influence for good on someone. I hope I can and will measure up to this new role I have taken on.

Again, I'm a little nervous about mom leaving tomorrow, but it reminds me of how Chad and I felt after dropping off his dad at the airport when we were first married and moved to Madison (his dad drove the moving truck out for us a week after we were married). We both kind of felt like, "Now what?" I'm sure it'll be that way for a little while, but we'll figure it out.